God, I need you to change me. To everyone it seems I am okay, I have it together and my life is fine, which it is, but things need to revolve around You. Not me. I feel so hypocritical sometimes. It seems I talk about these Christian, Jesus-loving ideas, but somehow (I think) it evades me to live it. Why?! Yes, I love Jesus. Yes, I want to serve You. Yes, I know You love me. No, what I say and do don’t match up. I want to be different. I want to experience you every day. I want to love, every single person, without reserve or fear.