So, one gift I got for Christmas was a harmonica and I attempted to play it today.
I consider myself to be pretty musically talented, but I just could not figure that thing out. It really got on my nerves and frustrated me that I couldn’t seem to understand it. I wanted to bad to just.. Play it!
But I couldn’t.
As a matter of fact, that truly made me furious.
It wasn’t even a massive deal or anything, but for some reason, I couldn’t let go of the fact that I can’t play harmonica. It kind of haunted me for a couple hours.. But now that I think about it.. It was good that it happened.
Some lessons I guess I just have to learn by failing to play harmonica. I had to learn, by weird lessons, that I can’t always be perfectly amazing at everything. I had to learn, that it will take persistence and practice to become good at some things. And some things? I will never be good at no matter how hard I try.
Slowly, I am also realizing that there are some things that someone is going to be better than me at.
And that is really frustrating.
I guess this is just one of those lessons that God is trying to teach me humility. I have to realize that the gifts God gave me, are my own. I have to be confident in that and I have to own it. Solid. It’s hard to remember that comparing myself to others will do no good. It always just leaves me feeling like a pile of poo and like I’m not worth anything. I have to remember that there is no one else like me.
I am uniquely perfect.
And playing harmonica is not my forte.
Which is okay.
Stay fresh, God bless!